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UBUNTU I am because of who we all are.
Supporting the 2012 Olympic Legacy—I WILL be positive and endeavour to maintain the Olympians' love of life and its challenges
MALALA—a statement of the failure of religion:
religion that fails to pro-actively promote the absolute equality of male and female is fuodamentally immoral and unfit for decent society.
There is no longer Jew or Greek, there is no longer slave or free, there is no longer male and female; for all of you are one in Christ Jesus. (Galatians 3:26-28)
Diversity within unity and change over time is the reality of Creation. Peter Such, poet and writer (1943–)
Neither praise nor shoot the messenger: the message is all.

Peter Such

Peter Such

A view of Great Berkhamsted from Cooper's fields.

Peter Such lives in Great Berkhamsted, Hertfordshire, England.
Formerly working in printing and publishing Peter Such is currently an occasional writer on diverse issues, as the mood takes him.
He has regularly put his views to the test of public opinion, which is how he twice ended up as mayor of his home town.
 He also stood for The Referendum Party in the UK General Election of 1997.
Also on Twitter as Peewit2 (he doesn't take it seriously) and on Facebook as himself (Peter.Such.5)


Thursday 24th August 2017 [early morning]



It was Labour and the Lib/Dems that denied us the political vote that turned commercial agreements on trade into political authoritarian diktat. As Churchill said "Trust the British people". Labour refused to do so and the Tories took too long to get round to doing so. Neither presented a competent argument.
We would have had a perfectly harmonious relationship with the EU had France not panicked over the greater empire and commonwealth that we created, for which reason they denied us earlier entry and ensured the rationality and logic we would have brought was excluded from the EU's basic structure, leading them away from proper objectives.

Thursday 24th August 2017 [early morning]
Not as out of touch as I might have thought. My own awareness pulled me up yesterday and I went for a walk. This morning, UK public health is chivying people generally to do the same thing, although "brisk" is not really in my vocabulary, "saunter" is more my style but at least the effort is made and awareness alerted.
      I find distractions have diverted me from posting since Monday. So, from Wednesday." Life is all contrasts and contradictions. Yesterday [Tuesday], I was infuriated but in my controlled manner I dissipated my ire into a letter, which I trust will be interpreted as informative.
     " Today [Wednesday], my schedule has been thrown because, perversely, I actually achieved something in my temper yesterday and suddenly found myself in a “get up and go”, “best if I’m in charge” mood. Concerned that I divert myself too much with Facebook, I’ve recently had to decline some chat opportunities because that is really not my style. I prefer to respond to posts as people have the mood and I, likewise am in the mood to respond. Live interaction is not my thing: I have a specific posting purpose (basically my own web site here) and then, if I have time, I look over other posts. Facebook is a social interchange into which I sometimes, through an invitation 'continue on my own web' ".
     A Facebook friend and I commented, a little while back, that perhaps Facebook was taking both of us away from more essential purposes, not that either of us was decrying the sociability of interacting, any more than social chit chat by the water cooler, to use an American phrase, although in the UK the case would more likely be the coffee machine in the corridor.
      That friend is now visiting Hadrian’s wall with a friend as did I around their ages but they are doing so far more energetically and walking the whole length, good for them. This after-noon I did what I have not done for too long, perambulated Ashridge. With the superb summer we have enjoyed it is ridiculous of me not to have made more of my opportunities but I am a 'tween seasons man.
      Today it was pleasantly warm but the trees were beginning to show the sap was already descending from the higher branches. About old Pendley time [open air Shakespeare], when a hot summer would show dry outer leaves turning already brown. Today, just a few hints of yellow and I forgot to take my pedometer with me but a reasonable amble. A positive mood has suddenly descended.
     Different sources simultaneously raised the issue of "clearing out" needs, a familiar problem.
1. Memories are treasured. As I go through my "rubbish" one item alone can bring forth a travelogue of accumulated memories that will keep me preoccupied for hours. Selfish, arrogant to think it is of interest elsewhere but simply to throw without checking opinion, that is irresponsible. Accumulated baggage, is it not that? What once was, it was in its time and time continually moves on. Do we? That is how society gets bound by caged views and becomes dulled in its wits.
2. There are those who are dismissive of history but are not those who explore it not learning from it as the certainty with which they go forward in their present times?
3. Family bibles were the tradition of keeping family trees. Are we so far forward we can write off our history and not destabilise our own base? Increasingly, families become diverse, for many reasons. Death was more regular, now it is longevity that increases the chance of second marriages but then, what relevance?
4. There are those who hold this life as a transitory one, no more and pass on to the next, or accept there is no "next". Many accept the belief there is a life after death but question little further as to its nature. Late last year I lost one of my closest and most long term friends. It was through him and his first wife I started exploring the spiritual world. I am not myself a sensitive but he was and they frequently invited me to join them in their spiritual discussions.
      I suppose my confirmation in this reality was when my aunt  came through for a specific purpose on an issue totally unknown to my friends. Since then there have been several incidents when I have been comfortable that there is a spirit world and it is close enough to us if we wish to pursue and we are of the right inclination to follow through.
     Such awareness came to the forefront of my mind earlier this year when my aunt's successor died—a long life that includes the trauma of losing two wives but gaining the challenge and experience of a singularly diverse family extension offers my uncle the chance of spiritual enrichment for future progression.
     So, again what value "a place in history" if only in the family album? Does the historian look beyond the facts of tools and their uses and the way people live? Does such exploration lead to the nature of their personalities? Can such exploration lead to an interest in contacting past spirits? Much experience of past lives came through my friends' explorations.
     Another Facebook interchange brought this to light from Jiddu Krishnamurti. "When you call yourself an Indian or a Muslim or a Christian or a European, or anything else, you are being violent. Do you see why it is violent? Because you are separating yourself from the rest of mankind. When you separate yourself by belief, by nationality, by tradition, it breeds violence. So a man who is seeking to understand violence does not belong to any country, to any religion, to any political party or partial system; he is concerned with the total understanding of mankind."
     I do not accept so simplistically Krishnamurti's introduction but his conclusion on the wholeness of Creation (he uses "mankind") is understandable and his intent is good if somewhat confrontational itself. Certainly i do not like labels. I am a Christian, a Protestant but a CofE man who is finding a wider, lighter interpretation in such branches as United Reform, Unitarian Universalism and Quakerism. Another uncle in conversation asked if I was a Spiritualist. I do not like labels, one simply "is" and therein hopefully finding that one is part of a very diverse "whole". It is exploring the "whole" that is the purpose of life.
      "A few cobras in your home will soon clear it of rats and mice. Of course, you will still have the cobras." -Will Cuppy, journalist (23 Aug 1884-1949)
      That last point is the key. All sorts of twaddle is being burbled about answers to multiple questions deriving from the same failure: to define and address the root cause.
      We are still trying to get men to realise that a woman is the equal to a man in social dignity. It is the duty of the railway to keep such men incapable of proper conduct off the trains, not seclude women from society in women only carriages: that is the Islamic route and no help to society growing up and moving on. Here endeth the lesson!

Monday 21st August 2017 [midday]
The word "hate" seems increasingly used. Is that because there is more of it or because it is the latest "pet" word to save using language more fully, or taking the time to be more specific in what one says; perhaps more accurately, taking the time to express what it is one wishes to say? So much seems preoccupied dash. Here's another question, is that last comment just stated a viewpoint peculiar to my age? Am I slowing up and therefore thinking the world is moving faster. Like being on a train and for a moment one is not sure if one's own train is moving or the train opposite?
     So, why this change in social converse? Is there a social air of depression, everyone is feeling down and dispirited and therefore hitting out in their angst? Is it inability to define what is troubling one? Is it so many "don't does" that we are actually silenced from stating an opinion, afraid the grammar/language police will confront one for getting it wrong, or being unintentionally inflammatory?
     Certainly the posts that float across my Facebook pages promote love in its spiritual sense and positive, philosophically inspired messages and attitudes. Occasionally, when responding to media posts I receive such comment as "What you wrote is nonsense, what does this drivel mean?" I usually ignore, as it indicates insufficient intelligence to explore the subject if not even one point is quoted where and why he (usually it is a he) holds a differing opinion. Depending upon the intelligence of the writing surrounding the jibe I may reply sweetly but not (I hope) unctuously in as pleasant a manner as to show up by contrast the nastiness of the original comment. Sometimes the reply is conciliatory, sometimes ignored in which case I like to believe I've sown a seed of self-questioning. When particularly exasperated I like to state the obvious by specifically not stating it, as in "that is all spherical objects!" We all know there is nothing simpler than playing ball games and balls themselves can inflict a most effective impact when carefully delivered and one has in fact been quite sweet and gentle in one's parry.
     The key is not policing, I do not think. Is it naïve of me to put it down simply to lack of education? It would be quite an exercise to parallel the years between 'A' level changes and the increased coarseness of social interchange and perhaps I try to imply too much into too little, although I do not think that the restoration of the original level of Advanced GCE grading is coincidence. After all, during the same period we have lost many grammar schools and the standard of Ordinary Level GCE's has been less demanding. Is not verbal abuse no more than a statement of the ill-educated, floundering out of their depth in their own language and is that not really a criticism of ourselves, in our inability to provide the very basics of life to our next generation?
     Then I turn to the Spanish outrage. Fortunately family that was out there at the time were some way away in another resort. Historically religion has caused much chaos on a global scale with various nut cakes. Even the CofE has had the odd pederast and Rome has long considered Protestant's interpretation of Christianity as warped. If an imam can get away with creating his own cell of dissidents no wonder Islamists encouraged so many to come over without a shred of English language and totally out of touch with the country's social life they were entering. The collective whole seems isolated, from which only resentment and disaffection can grow, no help to anyone. When one bears in mind Islam's extraordinary attitude to women one is drawn to the errors of Christianity that have caused so much trouble.
      The news turns me to consider Charlottesville again. The situation would not have happened if America had moved with the time instead of standing static. Society should be a state of continual change, the idea of staidness deriving from religion's mistake of presuming Creation was a one-off, not initiation of a state of continual change. During properly managed change, realisation of the horrors of Confederate dogma would have settled in, a change of attitude would have evolved and the statues could be viewed simply as an attractive memory of misguided patriots during a serious learning period for the nation. Somehow, America has got stuck in a time warp of white male supremacy, expecting the world to adapt to their dream world which has countered reality for far too long. Such attitudes are now becoming a serious disadvantage to America's economic and political welfare.

Sunday 20th August 2017 [midday]
Are they helpful? If a situation cannot be defined does that invalidate the situation; the attempt to define; confirms the situation is indefinable; or that the wrong questions are being asked?
     BBC's Sunday morning debated Sarah Champion's "resignation" after writing in The Sun claiming that some Pakistani men were grooming and raping young white girls. Both Islam and Christian Catholicism fail to observe equality of women, whereas Hinduism embraces greater diversity and has aspects of androgyny in its concepts of God but also includes a bias to treating women differently from men.
     Regardless, a simple matter is being inflated beyond the facts. The allegation is a cause to believe men are wilfully abusing young women. First rule, we must ensure we clearly counter any influences that indicate a potential prejudice against sexual equality and that includes influences of religion. It appears that religious indoctrination lay behind the Barcelona attack, the hoodlums specifically attacking women in their madness and failure to understand their own claimed religion.
     Second point, splinters of disintegration are appearing in Corbyn's performance. The media suggestion is that Champion was forced out, resigning to avoid that rather than resigning because she thought it necessary and the general opinion would seem to be that she was wrong to resign.
     Now let's apply the same argument to Brexit. It appears to be a mess primarily because the EU is a mess and our own politicians have failed to raise the issue earlier, allowing time to entrench what would otherwise not be difficult to separate back. This is our own stupidity and we seem to be missing the fact that the EU's intransigence is entirely because it is in a state of panic over losing our financial support, much of which has been hidden here by signs declaring "provided by EU money" avoiding pointing out that it is actually supplementing our own money!

Saturday 19th August 2017 [breakfast time]
Morning world. A pleasant looking day with the sun shining fully through my window and down the valley before me, its angle throwing exciting shadows of colour and detail, save that I have to close the curtains as the angle deters looking out. As I sit here a kaleidoscope of time passes through me, or is it I that passes through the kaleidoscope?
     Yesterday was extraordinarily productive and I was quite exhausted for the first time for a long time when exhaustion derived from doing, rather than from an inherent state of fatigue having done nothing. A full washing had been piled on to washing dried out over the week, to dampen it to make it more meaningfully ≠==≠ Not ironed last week due to fatigue, I could not cope. Suddenly I can and I did. Another move forward in a vast sorting out and now this morning, very positive feelings and I suddenly find it is 09:30. For me that is late but I am feeling positively energetic and have already made some sort of a start:

Good God, I’m there and there is here…
And not too bad a head of hair.
Features, slightly wizened, an eyebrow missing
Shingles in the eye from some time back,
Learned from mother when father lacked 
His usual due care envisaging precautions.
Collision of age, social change and due awareness
Too complicated to think more deeply,
Just a passing irritation but it wasn’t,
It was herpes zoster, commonly called shingles,
Like the cladding to a building or just plain chicken pox.
Like the time friends called you’d rarely see
Not knowing why they called, just sent by parents
Who had heard you’d got the pox or was that measles?
They caught it too and blamed it on you
Unaware that was why they suddenly arrived.
It seems they’d told the street you were available
To be seen, my parents, being keen to seem helpful
Told the neighbours, who sent their children round
To catch what I had got. This was sociability!


Friday 18th August 2017 [late after-noon]

So, a fresh bright morning; a clear desk; still rubble to clear but a desire to get on with work in hand and I divert to the news, such is life... flexibility, adoptability, malleability to the moment as the mood dictates. It is what living in an open, free and assured society is all about. Does that give one a right, perhaps even a duty, to "thrust" that on everyone else? What gives 'authority' to such argument? A proven history that such attitudes have led to where we are today? If so shining an achievement, why are so many jaded to the point of being ruthlessly determined to destroy that society? Are we missing something? What has led us to where we are and is where we are an achievement?
     This tiny island created the largest empire this world has so far known and showed the wisdom to (reluctantly) face reality and disburse it back to its sovereign entities, creating a commonwealth of diverse nations. The USA, the most important of those dominions is now broadcasting the very opposite of what we extolled: free determination of independent thinking across diversity of opinion in a richly fluid but complicated, continually changing world.
      Currently, using Charlottesville as my starting point, we have a nation forgetting who it is, if modern teaching ever lets each generation know its true history and there appears to be just cause for concern about American teaching competence. All Americans are immigrants from different lands, save for the 562 federally recognised tribes of which 229 are located in Alaska. The total American Indian & Alaska Native population in the United States today is 4.12 million, roughly 1.5% of the total U.S. population. Regretfully, uniquely but not unknown, it was relationships with the local Indians that got the Mayflower travellers through their first winter. A statue in remembrance of their leader stands in Plymouth, Massachusetts where the Mayflower pilgrims landed.
     There is a wealth of difference, then, now and in historical development between the two towns, showing the diversity of opinion and attitude across America. Does not so young a country need the reassurance of history, or is that need for reassurance a statement of a lingering uncertainty? The US had a civil war, as did we; threw off the colonial yoke as we created and disbursed an empire; and in a reduced time scale matured as a world power as had we. Where then lies this division within everyday society?
     Trump's plea for preservation of history in the statues commemorating generals supporting slave owners ignores a fundamental basis of human rights. Cromwell's statue created controversy when first erected but remains, despite his opposition to monarchy and the enormous damage he did to Ireland but then Charles did exhume Cromwell's body and hang it with others at Tyburn when the monarchy was restored. Language is in a state of change, recognising equality of the sexes and the offensiveness of language coined during the period of slavery. This is simply "changing society", against which religion wilfully set its teeth in opposition.
      What of the EU? Is it small-minded arrogance that determines we will not accept diktat from abroad? My pages on the EU are indexed above right. The key argument is basic fundamental structure: the direct voice of the electorate to be heard. Subsequently is the fact that those wanting membership of the EU have proved so unsure of their argument they have deliberately obfuscated bringing the matter to a clear conclusion.
     The then local leader of the Lib/Dems when I was on my town council, a man for whom I had much respect, maintained delay was essential to let things 'bed in'. What then he meant but was very careful not to actually state, "Given time the electorate will change and acceptance of the EU will go through." That alone is a very sound argument for Brexit and that is precisely why Conservatives and Labour have delayed so long over bringing the Referendum. They knew the concept was unacceptable to the majority of the electorate which is why I am so flabbergasted that Cameron thought he would get agreement. How could the nation's leader be so out of touch with the nation he was leading? Is it not the case that the Brexiteers have not flannelled but that the Remainers hive known from the beginning they never had any sound argument for foreign political control over this realm?
     Back to Trump, who is flannelling who? One could argue that dark skinned people cannot accept they are no longer second class citizens but have the white southern Americans recognised that reality and treated them no differently than a fellow white northern American? Therein lies the nub. Do northern white Americans treat southern white Americans as equals?
     In the UK, does north and south interact as one nation? So where the logic of political "centralised" control under the EU? Devolvement to the regions, in the UK's case not just three other countries but also within England itself. That is why the states operate independently: basic management logic, they are singularly so diverse.
     This brings us back to federal law. Yes, Trump has a point. When I was a student waving the Confederate flag was a statement of bolshieness and deliberate defiance. Basically the American civil war was white against white, the coloured people had no direct relevance to the argument. The USA was eight years ahead of the UK in giving women freedom to vote equally to men but it was not until 1964 that all black people could vote equally to a white man in the US. In the north "free" blacks could vote almost from the beginning but in the south a chap called Jim Crow prevented blacks voting equally to whites until 1964!
     From today's viewpoint, western civilisation has not really got anywhere particularly quickly. Then look at Islamic immigrants into this country. The appalling wilful subjugation of women, beating of children and the appalling ignorance of faith leaders in terms of understanding and educating their flocks in the life style of the western world in which they had chosen to make their home, quite apart from some of those so-called leaders being completely illiterate in basic English. No leadership!
     Just like Trump, not even in charge of himself! There is a lot of isolationism in American society, whereas this tiny island has been globally orientated for centuries. Yet within it, partly due to the diversity of its society but also because of the lack of interaction between north and south and west and east, cluttered with a deeply entrenched class consciousness, there are not many who have a comprehensive "feel" for the collective whole.
     'Class'. When are we going to stop using that word and stop applying to it a sense of importance? Should that word not be added to the list of unacceptable terminology of the modern day? So society evolves in fits and starts. What stirs the white supremacists? Is it not fear; uncertainty in an ever quickening pace of living; the immediacy of updated knowledge, highlighting the slowness of their wits unused to such speed of challenge? Is the age of communication not actually communicating, in the sense of bringing people together but highlighting differences, new ways of viewing familiar things and thereby fermenting trouble through fear of exclusion?
     That is something to which I am currently having to adjust. The pace of life with the quantity of change. In my case it is not age alone but ill health (although I currently feel very well) but behind the scenes I suffer chronic fatigue, so a measure of deliberate "slowing up" is a necessity for my longer wellbeing.
     So to Spain. Somewhat later than usual in time and without substantiating facts ISIS claims to be the cause, while not really knowing what it is talking about. What we do know is that a lot of diverse individuals are frightened and disillusioned with life as they know it and society as a collective whole has to accept responsibility. How to resolve? By starting with simple basics proven by past experience.
     We know historically from religion, do not force into conformity the naturally diverse. The EU persists in making this mistake. Allow the fact that society is diverse and full of different aspects/views/interpretations derived from historical precedents which take time to change but which must change as "Creation" itself is a state of continual change, or our increasing awareness of it teaches us the need to change. Religious attitudes, regardless of core beliefs inherently make this mistake of not being able to change until necessity forces its will, as it must.

Wednesday 14th August 2017 [early morning]
There was a nice piece on BBC Breakfast and pre-made homes can be bought for them but it is important to ensure there is a hole in your fence so they can get into your garden. Remember their name: they hog hedges!

Wednesday 16th AUGUST [midday]
An interesting morning. Distracted by some challenging Facebook posts. Still enjoying the newness of my bedroom re-arrangement, despite still being surrounded by boxes and delighted by my clear desk. It reminds me of my cousin's retirement do when I learned he was renowned as "the man with the teflon desk".
     I remember my mother being horrified at the size of the leather topped desk I ensconced in my living room when I first moved in. I've just got down to the leather again, which has been well protected through the years by being permanently covered in continually changing papers etc. I made the right decision.
     Further more, I recently bemoaned (very quietly) that I had difficulty in throwing things out. I think the implied "criticism" of my cousin was that he simply got on with things but he too knows how long books can take to write and being a minister there is at least the weekly sermon.
     However, hanging on to things has also come up trumps (an unfortunate word which may have to go out of circulation). I discovered a mains lead to which I could not relate but put to one side, rather than throw out! I have discovered the old Windows laptop to which it relates. Having brought Windows software on to the Mac I can dispense with it, so will reunite it with its lead, once I've re-found it and see if a charity shop has an end use for them.
     At the same time in sorting out I have discovered the mains lead that fits a previous Mac so am glad I can recreate an emergency Mac to cover contingencies (the leads have different transformers) if only to use for internet and as a word processor. I was on the verge of buying a new lead! So, now to some work, yesterday having proved less disappointing than I had feared at the end of it.

Tuesday 15th AUGUST [midday]
'Morning world, one P Such Esq reporting in. An interesting change providing me with new horizons. I am ploughing through a prolonged sort out which creates a permanent living mess and I now need to make provision for a new bed to come in, so current temporary one was turned round and re-positioned. Probably mere coincidence that I am invigorated this morning but certainly I awoke enchanted by my "location". Now, through my fourth cup of tea, I am realising there are no further excuses to avoid getting on with at least one of three books on which i am currently working!

Monday 14th AUGUST [midday]
"Well, well, well, three holes in the ground", as a late working colleague used to say. Last Saturday night I intended shooting off an extollation of a superb Saturday night at the Proms. So, catching from where I had got to, before shooting off on today's excitements and yesterday's collapse into a state of fatigue, here goes.
     Last night I had a quick Facebook interchange with friends and had cause to write as follows. "How very nice of you ..., having seen your photo I would love the opportunity of meeting next time you are down with friends. Its funny, I was in a mood to consider composing a rather full post as a result of watching tonight's Prom broadcast. Its a superb production. Brings back memories of how I got caught up in theatre, family memories flooding back and perversely how content I am as a bachelor. I just love the presence of women collectively. Perhaps, if the eternally right one had appeared, I would have made a commitment and while there has been a small number of diverse dalliances, I am content with a collective view of a large part of the available field, confirming that what is near to home is no less enticing than foreign fields, which do not necessarily offer more of the detail that eternity ultimately proves of value.
     Last night's production of Oklahoma was magnificent, being an updated version of the original Broadway production of which the dance routines were acclaimed as leading edge choreography for its time. I love long dresses filled out with petticoats swirling around elegant legs kicking high with a gusto I can only now imagine. The dexterity, enthusing complexity of routine, the ability to throw a girl high and hold her steady, arms outstretched before dropping her back to earth neatly and delicately. I was never able to dance nor play the piano, the essential arts just fading out of automatic social expectation in my youth. The stage reawakens such concepts in a false setting, no longer appropriate for an every day dance setting of love, the love of life and the sense of fun, diversity of life playing out through diverse moods. The quality was superb and I do not think it was tender years of awe that convinced me the amateur productions in which my aunt and I were involved locally lacked any of that panache, enthusiasm and joie de vivre.
     As I earlier wrote, Sunday was rather a wash out. Such days are necessary to accept with as good a grace as one can muster and I must send a private email to a friend, wishing her my best wishes. She is living in boxes pending a move not under her control, whereas I have been living with boxes around me for far too long, due to family deaths and a desire not to lose family history so that nothing of a diverse family was thrown out without making sure I know exactly what I am rejecting. This ties in with a desire to complete a family history and perhaps an autobiography as some fuller note in memoriam than a record in a crematorium and certainly not on a tombstone.
     I recall the ineptitude of the Hemel Registrar when I recorded my father's death. There was open public debate about making such entries digital but she was more concerned about the dignity of pen and ink. Cost effective utilisation of availability and looking up meant more to me. As a consequence of her concern for her pretty writing she wrote it out once to see if she had got it right and when recopying it got it wrong, despite having pointed out her error. My father was not in the Military Police but a Major in the Royal Military Police. I was astounded that a public figure had no realisation of such nomenclature. Sod the prettiness of the writing, get the facts down!
     So, we come to Monday. I am grateful that my health is essentially a damned nuisance and a loss of energy and "get up and go", which throws schedules completely and makes life worrisome when planning ahead. 'Will I be fit to drive?' being the main bone of concern when planning ahead but at least I have less concern (at the moment, fingers crossed) than many others and for that I am grateful and try to make the most of what I have.
     For those reasons anything I do is hassle. Buying a bed is not a simple issue. Just accept that statement, the whys and wherefores not remotely adding interest to this monologue. I am currently sleeping on a travelling bed having got rid of one to make space, which had previously been there nearly forty years. Major move time. Playing around with bedroom layout. Moving things, discovering things, realising I'm not going anywhere fast. Side-tracked. May be able to add more sacks to those accumulated and waiting disposal. Encouraging. Monday's planned schedule thrown. Positive? Hopeful, which is why I thought of my friend and wished her well. Decided on breakfast. Checked Facebook prior to considering work prompted by recent box moves and discoveries. Decided to quote a friend's Facebook entry.
      "Here is what really happened in Charlottesville, Virginia from a friend who was there. Nothing of the truth actually made it to the media. They made up much of the lies you're being spoon fed yet people continue to believe the media. Since our media is incapable of reporting with honesty and transparency:
     "The Alt Right organized a peaceful assembly in Charlottesville called Unite the Right.
     "The organizers lawfully obtained a permit to host this event.
     "Wes Bellamy, the Vice-Mayor of Charlottesville, illegally revoked the permit for this event. Wes Bellamy is a known Leftist and is affiliated with the Black Panther Party, a Black supremacist organization.
     "The ACLU successfully sued Charlottesville for violating the First Amendment, and a Federal judge ruled that the permit must be reinstated and the right to assemble honored.
     "Unite the Right was scheduled to take place on 8-12-17 at 12:00pm. At 11:30am, a heavily militarized police force illegally shut down the event, physically assaulting peaceful protesters with batons and tear gas. Several people were illegally arrested.
     "While evacuating, many protesters were illegally assaulted by counter-protesters from Antifa and Black Lives Matter as the police stood by and did nothing. Antifa and BLM members were recorded throwing bricks at people, using pepper spray, and throwing Molotov cocktails and tear gas.
     "An Antifa drove his car straight in to a crowd of people, killing at least one. The state of Virginia declared a state of emergency with the National Guard on standby, and Charlottesville became the #1 news story in the world
     "The lying media intentionally portrayed this all in a way to make it look like the peaceful protesters were the perpetrators of the violence, rather than the victims, despite heavy video evidence to the contrary.
      "This was an enormous breech of everyone's First Amendment rights, and a violent police-state suppression of free speech that is now being hidden by the lying media. A LOT of lawsuits are incoming, stay tuned!"
     Personally I find it very disturbing, we must be able to rely upon press reporting.

Friday 11th AUGUST [midmorning]
How very nice of you Bibbi, having seen your photo I would love the opportunity of meeting. Its funny, I was in a mood considering composing a rather full post as a result of watching tonight's Prom broadcast. Its a superb production. Brings back memories of how I got caught up in theatre, family memories flooding back and perversely how content I am as a bachelor. I just love the presence of women collectively.How simple things suddenly become complicated! I was looking at an annual reminder for my document security insurance and find both my EU health insurance and my passport have run out! I also find that since I last renewed those two documents the systems have changed. On top of which it is a mix of paper and digital, not the simplicity it should be. Botheration! Even buying a new bed is not straight forward but then that is due to choice. Am I really going to complain because I have choices but it isn't as if I was not already so busy I am way behind on my schedules!

Monday 7th AUGUST [after-noon]
The break is encouraging. I look back after too long a gap at work not completed and am encouraged.
      “So come to the poet his songs,/all hitherwards blown/From the misty land that belongs/to the vast unknown”, Henry Wadsworth Longfellow.
      "Like the dandelion ball that floats upon a gentle summer’s tease, brushing the cheek, so the child at play knows, without the knowledge yet to understand, that first moment, when one is close enough to a girl to feel her breath against one's cheek. Feel that semblance of her blooming womanhood; understand the magic of the moment; awed at the potential it implies, yet still sufficiently innocent merely to wonder that she is that close and knowingly, like him, content to stay and share the moment. That touching, seemingly without deliberate intent, just by intended chance. Wanting, yet not wanting, in case it spoils the awaiting potential: an agony of delicious uncertainty."
     One is suddenly young again as one remembers and realises one has written more than one had thought and nearly lost it. Haven't found the autobiography I started at 17 in verse Somewhere a Beginning but Betjeman, publishing his Summoned by Bells stopped me progressing further. If I find it, can I still read it? I can't recall if it was started in typewriter time or still long hand! Interesting.

Interesting. "The right to die" issue has re-arisen on Facebook. Not inappropriate here because my sorting through is to clear debris prior to tidying before departure. I haven't extended my thinking beyond the principle of the individual's right to die in the manner they choose. The problem is defining the criteria on which others may act for one being no longer compos mentis at the crucial moment. I demand the right but to actually make the decision is problematical, as I have no intention of going until I'm ready! I suppose it would be mental incapacity that I am no longer able to put fingers meaningfully to a keyboard is the only criterion one can offer in place of oneself but there is the potential for pain and that is complex.
      Religiosity might like to cite Christ on the cross, a last experience of life but then there are deeper sadomasochistic connotations embodied in the authoritarian nature of religion's concept of the agony and ecstasy of punishment. That is the hidden sexuality that religion pretends to denounce.
     It is not uncommon to have a wake before death. If my estate is paying for the wake then I might as well be there and enjoy my own money but to expect people to be around while one actually dies I think is a bit much. The important aspect is to die as one chooses and the last thing I would want is a crowd of people. I intend to avoid a funeral. When I have gone I hope to be immediately preoccupied with what lies ahead.

There is now a debate regarding Lord Sugar's condemnation of political liars. It is no use pointing out bits of the overall mess. The collective whole of Brexit has been utterly mismanaged by all parties. First, in failing to respond immediately and sort this all out twenty years ago. No politician understands basic management. Second, how could their advisers conclude the electorate would not vote as it did? I knew this result was likely twenty years ago when, as a local councillor, I had cause to travel quite widely in connection with a national project at town level. This was the obvious feeling I deduced then!



It was Labour's socialism that determined acceptance of the EU's diktats without argument because it took away their accountability for what they knew the country would not accept. All that is happening now is the rational debate Labour were not capable of holding.

Boundary clarification. How many seats and what preferred size of constituency population?

Proportional representation. Which system?

House of Lords? Should it be elected or appointed and upon what classification? Originally based on the realities of the day: Spiritual; Legal; Defence; land ownership; hereditary entitlement.

Today? Spiritual but across the faiths (define), including pure secularism/humanitarianism (all appointed/elected by their respective churches); Legal, as is; Political (variable by proven worth, such as past ministers or retired professional senior civil servants and limited party nominations); representatives of Capital, Financial Services, Labour (all either retired or active, appointed or elected by their respective accredited bodies); Education (ditto precedents stated); Health (ditto); Other?

The whole re-viewable by a statutory committee reporting with recommendations to parliament on a ten yearly basis to cover relevance of classifications in the then current world. Modus operandi as at present.


Friday 25th August 2017 [early morning]

In the light of recent cycling accident, cars are making less and less noise. The parliamentary review panel that reviews appropriateness of laws had the stupidity to remove bells from bicycles.If the cyclist had had a bell more attention would have been paid to him than simply yelling out. I certainly pay no heed to being shouted at I expect better courtesy.

Saturday 1st JULY idetity

I am delighted he demonstrates his Christian belief by showing his humility in acknowledging he's only of any use in second place.

He who blames his tools is admitting he's no damned good at the job.

Nice to have a journalist who has a trend to send himself up competently. Reminds me of one Talbot Rothwell and the actor Brian Rix who most successfully confused people as to which Whitehall theatre was providing the funniest show. Totally irrelevant to politics but a quietly amusing article.

What he is admiring is egocentricity to the point Blair filled MP seats with people following him not the party members who provided them with their opportunities. The LibDems are equally egocentric: determined to thrust their view in direct defiance of its rejection. Hawkins